Wednesday, February 6, 2008

One Domme, one city

I just recently had a month long affair with someone that required me to write a lot about myself, particularly my thoughts about the kink and my identity within that, and it made me realize that I do really enjoy that kind of writing. It is nice to air out that side of myself from time to time.

Unfortunately, that affair fell apart before it really even got off the ground, and now I'm once again in search of a partner -- the right partner this time. I'm looking for a boy to have as my very own, but finding the right boy takes time and patience. There will be some near-misses, some wasted time, and a little frustration along the way. My hope is that in recording this, beyond simply satisfying myself it will teach submissive men how to behave with respect to a Dominant woman -- in a truly selfless and service-oriented way, in a way that honors the Woman at the center of their lives. And hell yeah, maybe I'll get a few fawning readers out of it.

I've been in this lifestyle for a while, in one way or another. I think I've avoided the more formal scene-oriented groups because I've been afraid it reduced me too much to just my sexual orientation, despite the many other things in my life. Hey, I've even flirted with the idea of having a vanilla relationship, now and again. (Never works!) But I know what I like -- even if I try to think my way out of it, my body knows what it likes. There's no denying that, beyond a certain point. And I do want to find someone who is as comfortable with himself as I am with myself. I'm a little tired of the shy boys who skulk around on the internet and don't have the courage to pursue a real-time, honest relationship.

This past weekend, I spanked a firefighter and cleaned all my kit. I've recently come into possession of a really nice hood I'd love to use on someone, someday. Hooding is a new interest for me -- I didn't really get it before, but now I do. It deprives a boy completely of all outside stimuli, and he can lie there, trussed up and waiting for whenever I feel like getting back to him. The power in that is quite intoxicating. I also signed myself up for a local women's group, and we'll see what kind of people I meet there.

So this is a definitely positive start, which I need right now.

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